NinjaSprout

I suppose I'm really bad at feeling things as they happen. In the moment,  I suppose. They usually hit me a few months down the line. Especially the sad feelings. I spent two years in South Korea as a teacher. The last time I was on Korean soil was about 6 months ago. And the truth is,  its only now that I feel quite sad about the things I left behind. The life. But mostly a freedom like no other. I was safe. Maybe it was because I was a foreigner,  and a dark skinned foreigner at that,  so criminals were too scared to bug me. But,  the security I felt in Korea gave me wings for two years. For two years I could walk down the street. For tw

It's hard to put my thoughts in order long enough to get something written down that could possibly make sense, hence why it's been about two years since my last journal. But, I have decided that since I am back in South Africa, and at a yet another dramatic point in life, I might  well try. Even though it may not be that joyous. I have been out of the country for two years, and out of my hometown for 6? Geez that feels like a long ass time. And now I am back, and at a bit of a loss as to where to from here. Close friends don't really feel that close, and family have dispersed.I am super grateful for the few peeps that I have been able to se

Unlike in my previous journal entry, I am currently in a state of turmoil, and it is torture. Every morning I wake up thinking about my future, my life, and what I should be doing with it. My anxiety is at an all time high. As some of you may know, I had planned on living in South Korea for at least 2 years. And it was only a few weeks ago that I became content with my place here.  Until about a week ago when one of my schools decided not to give me a contract due to a suggestion I made about splitting my winter class into two groups in order to make it easier. I don't know how that turned into them assuming that I didn't want to do my job b